Changes

13:35:00


When I opened a new window to write this post it was Sunday, and I thought to myself 'Sunday is such a perfect day for blogging'. Sleeping till noon, having a long breakfast and just being lazy all day. However, as I type this it's Monday evening. My plan to write a post yesterday somehow ended down in the trash box. And I am sitting here wondering what did I do with my day yesterday. Anyhow, I am typing this after a long day in town (I am back in Frankfurt yay!) and I have to be honest, crutches are so extremely tiring. I am halfway through (I hope), I still have several weeks to go till I can stand on my very own two feet and that's what's keeping me strong and positive. On the last night at my mom's place I got this sudden urge to clean - and I don't mean to wash the dishes or attempt to hoover the house whilst supporting myself on crutches (would be a funny sight to see though). I was really in the mood to go through my old belongings, which were burried in gigantic boxes in the basement. I found some of the clothes and little nothings back from high school days and I think it was the first time when I had zero nostalgia. I just looked at it all and threw most of it away. Just like that. Basically all of it. Why? I don't know and I am not planning to question that. I am just ready for new changes.

I think for the first time in months, I am not overthinking and just going with the flow. It is nice not to have any plans and not wonder what will I do in a month or what's gonna happen next year. Whatever is meant to happen, will happen. I just know that I am gonna work harder on my blog, I know it will change somehwat too (maybe not the look) but its content to some extent. I won't deny that I've been in contact with a lot more brands and I am happy that I am slowly earning this opportunity to work with some companies. I mentioned this time and time again that I didn't start blogging out of the boredom. I've always loved the inspiration and creativity that bloggers share with the world. And I think you are really fortunate if you are able to turn this hobby into your work. But I don't mean only this when I speak about changes. I already feel like I reached a milestone by getting rid of things that I thought I'd never throw away, things that were once a special part of my life (like the little photographs I used to collect in the above photo). Although I physically emptied out some space it feels as though in doing so I made space in my mind and for what's to come. I hope this kind of attitude sticks around with me for the next months, as I want to infect others with it. I want to spread positivity and good energy into the world for two very selfish reasons. First one being that it feels damn amazing, and the second one being the good old truth - what goes around comes back around. On that note, I am leaving you with a paragraph from a book I just finished recently. This paragprah left me really touched and curious, and I believe influenced my current state of mind. I hope it does your too.

'Here was a whole world yet to be discovered, and I had only just cracked its surface. The thought filled me with regret - but also a shameful kind of relief. I would see my home again, after all, and my parents. And maybe it was childish, this old urge to explore for exploring's sake. There was romance in the unknown, but once a place had been discovered and cataloged and mapped, it was diminished, just another dusty fact in a book, sapped of mystery. So maybe it was better to leave a few spots on the map blank. To let the world keep a little of its magic, rather than forcing it to divulge every last seceret.'

Today I'm listening to: Mikky Ekko - Burning Doves

With Love,
Bri


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  1. This was a very inspiring and timely read for me! I'm spending a few days at a conference for work, and I always feel inspired to make changes and improvements to how I do my job when I get back from these types of professional development events. I have so many ideas that I now have the overwhelming task of figuring out how to implement! But I'm grateful for the opportunities to continuously improve myself, personally and professionally.

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    1. That sounds like a lot of fun! What I like about those type of events is that you are around like-minded people and that is really inspiring. It always recharges your mind with ideas and new plans, doesn't it? I hope you had a great time at your conference, would love to hear more about it! x

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