I don't always feel comfortable sharing personal thoughts. But there are moments when you just need to let it all out. When I am not occupied with work or other endeavours, various thoughts overtake the beautiful opportunities of the present moment. That is when we drown ourselves in memories or future's could-be's. It's not a bad thing so long as you are able to accept that nothing can be changed about what's already done. Wondering what's yet to come will bring you nowhere as well. You cannot control every little detail of your life. I do wish that I could sometimes, and that's why I am trying to distract myself whenever these thoughts start to cross my mind. Lately I've been thinking a lot about the past, about how I would have done this or that if I could go back in time. It's pointless and destructive, yet I am still unable to avoid these moments. I still terribly miss my cat, who passed away almost a year ago. I think about my co-worker almost every night who committed suicide a few years ago and I was never able to say goodbye to him. Not that you are ever able to prepare for these kind of moments anyway. I suppose that is why I am so protective of everything in my life recently. I don't take anything for granted anymore. Whatever it may be. The roof over my head, the conversations with family and friends, or something so simple yet powerful as time. Because they all come and go too fast.

It's good to remind yourself that. Although unhealthy to dwell on for too long. I still try to find the balance between the two. It explains why I always admired people who are lighthearted, or to be fair - I even envied that a little. To be able to live in the moment is the most beautiful gift. But your thoughts, your dreams and your words is what makes you YOU, and I wouldn't want to change or trade that for anything. There's no truer happiness than living an authentic life, a life that is completely yours. And although I find myself quite often pondering about why someone else is having it better or worse than me, I know that we all need to follow our own path, whatever rocks or mountains might be on the way. We all need to make our own tracks. Even though I still cringe inside a little in silly and somewhat stupid situations like when I see a girl gossiping about me with another stranger while I'm waiting to pay in the line, or a passer-by laughing whilst I pose for photos on the street - it's my life. And although some moments are not always going to be pleasant, they will always be a part of my story.

Today I'm listening to: M83 - Outro

With Love,

What I'm wearing: Coat - Benetton / Jeans - Zara / Shoes - Adidas / Bag - SH

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  1. It's such an amazing post! I like it! And already can't wait to see the new one!

    p.s. new post about how I met Victoria Beckham already on my blog

    Diana Cloudlet

  2. Love this! It's all part of the crazy adventure called life!